I'd gone from being this art student messing about with music to this girl with a record deal, magazine front covers and all this hype. In many ways, it was everything I ever wanted, but when it happened all I felt was total, paralysing fear.

Summary

This quote reflects the speaker's experience of achieving fame and success, but feeling overwhelmed by fear rather than satisfaction. Despite initially desiring recognition and validation, the reality of meeting those ambitions leaves the speaker feeling paralyzed by fear. This suggests that attaining one's goals and the expectations that come with it can be daunting and may not necessarily lead to genuine fulfillment or happiness.