I'm not resigned, but I'm realistic too. The statistics in my case are very poor. Not many people come through esophageal cancer and live to talk about it, or not for long. And the other wager is, the part of the wager, it's a certainty you'll have a terrible time and you may wish you were dying because it's an awful process.

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In this quote, the author speaks about their perspective on battling esophageal cancer. They assert that while they are not resigned, they are also realistic about the odds of survival, which are generally low for this type of cancer. They acknowledge the grim statistics and emphasize that not many people who have faced this illness have managed to survive, or if they have, not for long. The author also highlights the certainty of enduring a painful and dreadful process as a part of the wager in fighting this disease.

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