Let me put it this way, my father believed in a righteous God. Deus volt, that was his motto- 'because God wills it.' It was the Crusaders' motto, and they went into battle and were slaughtered just like my father. And when I saw him lying dead in a pool of his own blood, I knew then that I hadn't stopped believing in God. I'd just stopped believing God cared. There might be a God, Clary, and there might not, but I don't think it matters. Either way we're on our own.

Summary

This quote reflects a shift in the speaker's belief in God. The speaker's father had faith in a just and involved God, symbolized by the motto "Deus volt" associated with the Crusaders. However, witnessing his father's death and the apparent lack of divine intervention led the speaker to doubt whether God truly cares. The speaker acknowledges the possibility of God's existence but asserts that it is irrelevant because, in their perspective, humans are ultimately responsible for their own destinies.