I was living my own future and my brother's lost one as well. I represented him here just as he represented me there, in some unguessable other place. His move from life to death might resemble my stepping into the kitchen - into its soft nowhere quality and foggy hum. I breathed the dark air. If I had at that moment a sense of calm kindly death while my heart beat and my lungs expanded, he might know a similar sense of life in the middle of his ongoing death.

Summary

This quote explores the concept of interconnectedness between the living and the deceased. The speaker relates their experience of living their own future while also embodying their deceased brother's lost potential. They express the idea that, just as they represent their brother in the present, their brother may symbolize their existence in another unknown realm. The act of moving from life to death is likened to stepping into a vague, ethereal space, where the speaker contemplates the similarity between their experience of calm in life and their brother's potential experience of vitality amidst ongoing death.

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