Quote by Joyce Maynard
Not only did I avoid speaking of Salinger I resisted thinking about him. I did not reread his letters to me. The experience had been too painful.

Summary
This quote suggests that the speaker deliberately avoids discussing or thinking about Salinger, indicating a conscious effort to distance themselves from him. The mention of not revisiting the letters implies an emotional pain associated with that relationship. It implies that the speaker made a deliberate choice to create some distance or disconnect in order to protect themselves from the pain caused by their connection to Salinger.