Quote by John Green
I tried to imagine him capital-S Somewhere as we prayed, but even then I could not quite convince myself that he and I would be together again. I already knew too many dead people. I knew that time would now pass for me differently then it would for him- that I, like everyone in that room, would go on accumulating loves and losses while he would not. And for me, that was the final and truly unbearable tragedy: Like all the innumerable dead, he'd once and for all been demoted from haunted to haunter.
Summary
In this quote, the speaker mourns the loss of someone close to them and reflects on the inevitability of death. They struggle to imagine the deceased person existing somewhere after life, suggesting a doubt in an afterlife. The speaker acknowledges their own experiences with death, realizing that they will continue living, accumulating both joys and sorrows while the deceased person remains stuck in the past. This realization deeply saddens the speaker as they come to terms with the fact that their loved one is now reduced from being haunted by the memories of the living to becoming the haunting memory themselves.
By John Green