There was a whole language that I could never make function for myself in relationship to painting and that was attitudes like tortured, struggle, pain.

Summary

In this quote, the speaker reflects on their inability to relate to certain attitudes associated with the act of painting, such as being tortured, struggling, or in pain. The speaker suggests that despite these common perceptions, they personally cannot find meaning or productive use in such states of being. This could imply that the speaker approaches painting with a different mindset or viewpoint, one that diverges from the traditional notions of suffering for an art form, and instead potentially finds inspiration and creativity in other aspects of life or artistic practice.

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