Quote by Charles Baudelaire
I have cultivated my hysteria with delight and terror. Now I suffer continually from vertigo, and today, 23rd of January, 1862, I have received a singular warning, I have felt the wind of the wing of madness pass over me.
Summary
In this quote, the speaker suggests that they have intentionally embraced their own hysteria, finding both pleasure and fear in it. As a result, they now experience a constant state of dizziness, or vertigo. The speaker then refers to a specific day, January 23, 1862, when they received a peculiar warning. They describe feeling the fleeting presence of madness, likening it to the wind of a passing wing. This quote hints at the speaker's descent into madness, highlighting the complex relationship between enjoyment, terror, and the ever-looming threat of losing control.