Most of me was glad when my mother died. She was a handful, but not in a cute, festive way. More in a life-threatening way, that had caused me a long time ago to give up all hope of ever feeling good about having had her as a mother.

Summary

In this quote, the speaker reveals a conflicted sentiment towards their mother's death. While most would expect sadness or grief, the speaker admits that they actually felt a sense of relief and gladness. The speaker's mother seemed to have been emotionally or mentally challenging, causing them immense strain and abandoning any hope of a positive relationship. The quote highlights the complicated and diverse emotions surrounding familial dynamics, emphasizing how not all maternal relationships evoke warm or loving feelings.

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